Easy does it.

Well since my last blog, things have gotten a whole lot better. I had to give myself a couple pep talks, write, read, and overall just reconnect with myself and others. I'm feeling pretty positive and now have two more days of work before I leave for the West coast.

This morning I met with Sarah and her boyfriend Jake over some coffee and grilled cheese sandwiches. It was so good to meet up with them. I love Sarah and she is always so funny and awesome to talk to. She lives in Omaha and will be taking my car while Justin and I are gone. She's also kind enough to drive us to and from the airport. : ) Love her.

Tonight is the Modest Mouse concert but I have opted not to go. It's $35 to go and I would rather save that money and just use it to buy a dress or something while I'm away. : )

After the concert I'm probably going to meet up with Sarah and Jake at Fryn' Pan before they leave for Omaha tomorrow morning.

I also plan on seeing Danielle before I leave. She's going back to Missouri for a couple weeks to get moved in to her new apartment. Exciting! Especially exciting because I'll be going down to see her the third week of August. YAY!

Tomorrow and Wednesday are days that I'm going to spend devoted to seeing friends, cleaning the house, and getting ready to go. There's not a whole lot to do but I really want the house to be clean so when we get back it's not terribly sickening. Haha.

Then...We'll be gone for a week on the trip I've been waiting for, for the last 6 mos.

Today I work from 3:30 to 7:30 and then tomorrow I work 3:30 to 6:30. Tough life, right? ; )

Hip hip Hooray!

See you when I get back. (!!!)

chipped beef

Well it's late Wednesday night/early Thursday morning and I really have no idea what to blog about.But I have decided to keep my word on posting once a week, albeit a day (or two) late.

I'm currently in a very melancholy mood, sitting at the apartment while the boy is out with his friends. I had a good day today filled with laundry, meeting with friends, and catching up on some shows that I watch from time to time.

Every summer around this time, I start to feel a small pinch "bored out of my mind". I'm trying to keep busy by reading, small amounts of writing, and mindlessly watching television. Really, I'm trying to keep busy until I leave for Portland. : )

There's been some animosity between friends and I feel kind of horrible about it, to be completely honest. I don't want to go into much detail because it's silly. I'm the kind of person that doesn't like to be in qualms with anyone. I like to keep the peace and feel horrible if I do anything to hurt anybody else.

But sometimes you just have to stand your ground. And if standing your ground means pissing someone else off, then so be it. What's that quote?..."It's better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not."...somethin' like that.

I'm just nostalgic for my relationships with friends and how they used to be. I know it doesn't do any good to live in the past and it definitely pays off to look forward to the future, but at this point it just makes me sad at how everybody seems to be drifting away.

But I guess that's what happens when you grow up and get real jobs and lives and invest time and energy into new people and places. I just didn't know it would happen so fast.

That's what's on my mind currently. Just growing up and apart.

On a side note, things with Justin are great. And things with most of my other friends are swell, too. Just a few little things that are bringing me down. : /

Could be worse. It could always be worse.

So Portland. You are a week away. I've been looking forward to you for 6 months so now that you're so close I don't even know what to do! It doesn't even feel real.

Well the next time I update I'll either be just about leavin

g for the land of ports or just coming back. : )

Seattle

Portland

For now I'm off to read before bed and catch-up with my boo. : )