So here's the thing...: chipped beef

Well it's late Wednesday night/early Thursday morning and I really have no idea what to blog about.But I have decided to keep my word on posting once a week, albeit a day (or two) late.

I'm currently in a very melancholy mood, sitting at the apartment while the boy is out with his friends. I had a good day today filled with laundry, meeting with friends, and catching up on some shows that I watch from time to time.

Every summer around this time, I start to feel a small pinch "bored out of my mind". I'm trying to keep busy by reading, small amounts of writing, and mindlessly watching television. Really, I'm trying to keep busy until I leave for Portland. : )

There's been some animosity between friends and I feel kind of horrible about it, to be completely honest. I don't want to go into much detail because it's silly. I'm the kind of person that doesn't like to be in qualms with anyone. I like to keep the peace and feel horrible if I do anything to hurt anybody else.

But sometimes you just have to stand your ground. And if standing your ground means pissing someone else off, then so be it. What's that quote?..."It's better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not."...somethin' like that.

I'm just nostalgic for my relationships with friends and how they used to be. I know it doesn't do any good to live in the past and it definitely pays off to look forward to the future, but at this point it just makes me sad at how everybody seems to be drifting away.

But I guess that's what happens when you grow up and get real jobs and lives and invest time and energy into new people and places. I just didn't know it would happen so fast.

That's what's on my mind currently. Just growing up and apart.

On a side note, things with Justin are great. And things with most of my other friends are swell, too. Just a few little things that are bringing me down. : /

Could be worse. It could always be worse.

So Portland. You are a week away. I've been looking forward to you for 6 months so now that you're so close I don't even know what to do! It doesn't even feel real.

Well the next time I update I'll either be just about leavin

g for the land of ports or just coming back. : )