Blahssss.

So, it's been a while journal.

There is so much to catch up that I don't believe I can.

I'll leave you barren for now until I can catch a break with school.

:)

Easy does it.

Well since my last blog, things have gotten a whole lot better. I had to give myself a couple pep talks, write, read, and overall just reconnect with myself and others. I'm feeling pretty positive and now have two more days of work before I leave for the West coast.

This morning I met with Sarah and her boyfriend Jake over some coffee and grilled cheese sandwiches. It was so good to meet up with them. I love Sarah and she is always so funny and awesome to talk to. She lives in Omaha and will be taking my car while Justin and I are gone. She's also kind enough to drive us to and from the airport. : ) Love her.

Tonight is the Modest Mouse concert but I have opted not to go. It's $35 to go and I would rather save that money and just use it to buy a dress or something while I'm away. : )

After the concert I'm probably going to meet up with Sarah and Jake at Fryn' Pan before they leave for Omaha tomorrow morning.

I also plan on seeing Danielle before I leave. She's going back to Missouri for a couple weeks to get moved in to her new apartment. Exciting! Especially exciting because I'll be going down to see her the third week of August. YAY!

Tomorrow and Wednesday are days that I'm going to spend devoted to seeing friends, cleaning the house, and getting ready to go. There's not a whole lot to do but I really want the house to be clean so when we get back it's not terribly sickening. Haha.

Then...We'll be gone for a week on the trip I've been waiting for, for the last 6 mos.

Today I work from 3:30 to 7:30 and then tomorrow I work 3:30 to 6:30. Tough life, right? ; )

Hip hip Hooray!

See you when I get back. (!!!)

chipped beef

Well it's late Wednesday night/early Thursday morning and I really have no idea what to blog about.But I have decided to keep my word on posting once a week, albeit a day (or two) late.

I'm currently in a very melancholy mood, sitting at the apartment while the boy is out with his friends. I had a good day today filled with laundry, meeting with friends, and catching up on some shows that I watch from time to time.

Every summer around this time, I start to feel a small pinch "bored out of my mind". I'm trying to keep busy by reading, small amounts of writing, and mindlessly watching television. Really, I'm trying to keep busy until I leave for Portland. : )

There's been some animosity between friends and I feel kind of horrible about it, to be completely honest. I don't want to go into much detail because it's silly. I'm the kind of person that doesn't like to be in qualms with anyone. I like to keep the peace and feel horrible if I do anything to hurt anybody else.

But sometimes you just have to stand your ground. And if standing your ground means pissing someone else off, then so be it. What's that quote?..."It's better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not."...somethin' like that.

I'm just nostalgic for my relationships with friends and how they used to be. I know it doesn't do any good to live in the past and it definitely pays off to look forward to the future, but at this point it just makes me sad at how everybody seems to be drifting away.

But I guess that's what happens when you grow up and get real jobs and lives and invest time and energy into new people and places. I just didn't know it would happen so fast.

That's what's on my mind currently. Just growing up and apart.

On a side note, things with Justin are great. And things with most of my other friends are swell, too. Just a few little things that are bringing me down. : /

Could be worse. It could always be worse.

So Portland. You are a week away. I've been looking forward to you for 6 months so now that you're so close I don't even know what to do! It doesn't even feel real.

Well the next time I update I'll either be just about leavin

g for the land of ports or just coming back. : )

Seattle

Portland

For now I'm off to read before bed and catch-up with my boo. : )

Weep and Wonder

It's Tuesday. And it's absolutely GORGEOUS outside! But that's pretty much everyday, as of late. Summer brings out the best in Sioux Falls. Mmmmhmmm.

I've decided that I'm going to try to update at least once a week. Preferably every Monday or Tuesday.

Things are going swell since the last entry. I'm currently sitting inside the apartment, watching a trashy movie on Hulu and feeding my online shopping addiction. Except I'm not buying anything. Just looking tends to cure my need to shop. : )

I just started a new David Sedaris book, Naked. It is so delightful thus far. Just in Mr. Sedaris' style - hilarious and cathartic.

I got my first sunburn of the summer on Sunday when I was laying out with Danielle. And boy does it sting. I also have more freckles than ever. I think after all these years I'm finally starting to accept my freckles. They are unusual and I can't count the times in the past that I have wished for porcelain skin. But I 'spose that I should get used to them since they probably aren't going anywhere. Especially if I keep giving into my desire to bask in the sun.

I wish I had more interesting things to write about. Haha. Justin and I leave for Portland in two weeks. I can't wait. Now that it's so close I just want to leave now but of course I have some more working, reading, and planning to do before we climb on that plane. I just know that we won't want to leave. Maybe I won't leave...

Just kidding. I'll come back but I know that I'll leave Portland wishing that it was my home. As much as I love Sioux Falls sometimes I feel like I need to get out. I will finally get my chance. :)

I haven't done any painting in MONTHS. I was looking at some art the other day and realized that I need to get on that stat. I've also gone birding a few times this summer but nothing extensive. I think I mostly go for the peace it brings -- being out in nature alone.

I will leave with some art that I have recently looked at and leaves me feeling in awe. It's simple...but just how this summer makes me feel. :)

Loss of innocence. Classic. :)

I've been eating a lot of these lately.

Haunting.

Ich leibe ICE CREAM!

Coooool.

This fox would look good as a tattoo. : )

Hell yeah I love cake.

Definitely a celebratory summer.

I Cut Like A Buffalo

Well I can honestly say that this weekend has been full of surprises.

We went to a street dance in Hartford last night.

I don't like small towns. At all. They creep me out. And I always end up feeling like a jerk because I'm quiet and kind of shy at first and that turns people off real quick.

But it was fun. Kind of.

Everyone was drunk and then we stumbled upon a house party and just sort of mingled. My guard were still up because I was completely sober but I still had a somewhat fun time.

Today is a day for cleaning. Our apartment is a wreck if I have ever seen one. Ahhh.

I wanted to talk a little about my summer so far. More than I talked previously, anyways.

It's been good. Kind of weird because I'm not working that much and I have a lot of free time on my hands, which I have never had before. But at the same time, it feels like I never have time for anything. It's weird. I'm weird.

It's also hard to negotiate my time spent between my Sioux Falls friends and my O'Gorman friends. People end up getting mad one way or the other. And I fear hurting my Sioux Falls friends because honestly, I want to spend more time with my O'G friends. I said it. I never see them and I want to see more of them this summer. Sorry.

I've been keeping my personal journal updated but I can't say that I've written anything of much caliber, besides for two or three poems. And those aren't all that good.

I feel like I pushed my creativity and brain so far this past semester and I'm still reeling from it. But I kind of miss school. I miss that structure. Even though I hated it towards the end, I still miss seeing teachers and reading new things and waking up before 2:00 p.m. God.

Justin and I leave for Portland in 25 days. WHOA. I have a lot of saving/preparing to do. But I can't wait! We are both so excited and I can hardly wait to get out of Sioux Falls for a while. Christ, I can hardly wait to get out the midwest for a while. Thank godddd.

Happy Sunday.

Summatime time.

So it's been awhile since my last blog and I am going to write a little before I have to head to work. In about ten minutes. This'll be fast...

This summer is already going so fast. And it's so relaxing and fun.

I dropped my math class (whoops).

Turned 21. YAY!

Finished my semester off beautifully.

Spending time with friends (but wishes I could spend MORE time with them!)

Saving money for Portland...we leave in less than a month!

And reading/writing/birding.

I have slowed down my reading schedule lately and need to get back into it. I have to finish this book I've been on for about two weeks now. My goal of reading a book a week started out pretty great...and now I'm getting lazy.

Well...I foresee that I will blogging more later tonight/tomorrow and getting back into the swing of things.

Happy Friday!

In May days...

Two weeks left of classes?

Uh oh...

I have tons and tons to do! I plan on getting most of everything done this week and then doing a few tune-ups on last minute projects and so on next week. It's really crazy righ

t now and I shouldn't have put off as much as I did. But that's kind of how I work.

So I thought that I would blog a bit because I won't have time until after finals.

Ayyy carrumba.

It's really interesting because even though I'm busier than ever I am still going to Omaha on Sunday with my gal pal Hannah to visit Sarah, as she's getting back from the Dominican Republic and we're having a big party in honor of her arrival. It's almost more of an incentive because that way, I'll feel the need to get tons done before I leave. And then I can co

me back from a crazy night and hunker down on the remainder of the semester.

This past weekend was fun, as well. Liz and I had a girl's night, filled with shopping, food, talking, and wine. I haven't let loose in a really, really long time and it was much needed.

Now I'm compartmentalizing every minute of my days (and considering pulling an all-nighter or two) just to make sure I get everything done. It's boring to talk abou

t but I need to write about it to relieve some of my stress. Cuz believe me, there's a lot of stress.

I really cannot wait to be done with the semester and enjoy a beautiful summer with my friends, family, Justin, and everything else!

And this will be me, riding away from USF after my last final.

:)